Day Thirteen : Numbers 17 - 25

There are days and periods when persuing God is more difficult than the previous. There are days when God's voice isn't as clear, there are days when persuing God seems mundane. But how can one's persuit of an "untamed lion" be mundane? Could it be my issue? Could it be that I've put distractions first, feelings first? Or could it be that God simply has withdrawn, pulled back, not forsaken, but given me some space for growth. Like the parent of 3 year old, there are times when the parent lets go of the child's hand, the parent never allows the child to leave their line of sight, and the parent could in a flash return again their embrace, but for the moment the hand is withdrawn.

I'm going to be honest I've never liked this senerio, however it's in this senerio that God tests our faithfulness, God test's our heart, in order to prepare us for the "wolves".

Poor God, In Numbers 20:12, God's greatest friend on earth betray's Him. Moses, the man God had chatted with face-to-face. The man God had blessed beyound my current understanding, the man God had done great wonders through, the man who'd seen it all, the man whom God befriended. We learn that Moses "did not trust" in God enough for water. Stinkin water.. Moses what were you thinkin! This broke God's heart, never again would their relationship be the same.

And then we have Balak and Balaam. Balak wanted to put a curse on the Israelites so he summoned Balaam (a man of divination/sorcery) to put a curse on the Israelites. But God actually spoke with Balaam verbally. Balaam is obedient to God, although at one point God has to speak to him through his donkey, God even fills Balaam with His Spirit. There's a part in the story where God speaks verbally to Balaam a couple times, but then God withdraws the verbal and waits for Balaam to hear God's voice from the vs 30 "habits of his donkey". Intersting that God has a way of speaking and then testing, actually trusting the one He has spoken to to be aware, to persue God further. God eventually places "oracles" in the mouth of Balaam which speak of God's blessing a eventual deliverance of the people of Israel.

Intersting that God chooses to speak this prophecy through a non-Jew.

So like Balaam I will not cease in persuing God, even if it gets a little tougher, even if I have to hear it from a donkey. I'll take His voice any way I can get it. I feel like worshipping God, I might go write a song, and play the piano.